$amantha Monogatari ♥

2011-12-08T20:48:00.001+08:00

Heavy heart. Suffering. Heart pain. Red eyes. I feel like I have no more tears to cry out. Good night.

Another Working Day

2011-12-05T07:17:00.001+08:00

Sleep disorder. A lot of things to think. Once my brain starts to worry this and that, it keeps on spinning and won't stop. I'm just 21. I'm worrying too much but I can't help but keep making myself physically and mentally weak. I'm tired. All I want is a good sleep. Hope I can say good night now, but I have to say Good Morning World!

Hatred

2011-12-02T23:49:00.001+08:00

I really hate myself. Just to find a place to release my feelings so that I could have a peaceful sleep. Good night world!

A Laugh

2011-11-30T19:08:00.002+08:00

God hears my prayer. I just updated my blog yesterday morning regarding my problem and its solved by afternoon. But well, one problem always come after another. Anyhow, this new problem is a trivial matter. No worries, only slight.

Good day everyone!

Lost My Motivation

2011-11-29T06:40:00.001+08:00

I felt weird when I open my eyes every morning for this past 2 months. I am thinking, "Ah, I'm going to work again." Its boring. Its not like I dun like working life, but working in the company I am working in now is boring. And I have been facing with one after another problem regarding UTAR. I am exhausted having facing these problems but thank God, each problem was solved one after another. I really am thankful to have my family, friends and my dear to support me during all these problems. Unfortunately, I am facing another problem right now. All I need now is luck and God bless so that I can go through this. I dunno why, but every time I woke up, I will be thinking, What am I going to do today? What's my goal? My ambition? I think I have grew lazier and lost my aim this past 2 months. This ain't right.

Days, Weeks and Month (s) Working as an Intern Student

2011-11-12T22:40:00.002+08:00

My internship begins in the beginning of October till the end of December. Exactly 3 months time. 1 month working has passed, along with my 21st birthday AND I got my salary for the first time in my 21 years old life time.

Wait.. I did get a 1-day wage before actually..Acting as a ghost on my 13th or 14th birthday itself for Halloween Day in my tuition centre, MMSB. And I was on a Chinese newspaper as well. Want me to show you guys the picture? I wish I could. I didn't keep them. The first time I was on newspaper is when I was 10 or 11 years old. Attended a national competition for mental arithmetics in KL. My friend told me that I got into the newspaper..New Straits Time or The Star I think. But I dun buy English newspaper when I was in primary school. Argh!!!!

Back to topic. To summarize my working experience, I would say its boring, tiring and I dun enjoy it. One good thing bout intern is that I get to stay in Ipoh all the time and thus, I get to see my darling everyday. Muahahaha..

My Presents

2011-11-12T21:49:00.005+08:00

Hmmm.. What I'm having for my 21st bday aside from a handsome *ahem ahem* 99% good boyfriend and a super duper awesome birthday cake he got for me?

Let's see.............

As usual, my closest relatives will gimme big "angpow" (red packet).. Not gonna disclose how much I got. Don't wanna get robbed. Ahahahaha.. Joking..

As seen from the pics, I got a Gucci handbag, a large Domo-kun, a Swarovski crystal pendant and an iPhone 4. Thank you so much for the presents.

Erm, is it normal to get an iPhone as bday present? I felt weird to be honest because its expensive. Nevertheless, I'm enjoying this new phone as well as decorating it with cute hand phone case. Thank you darling!

My 21st Bday

2011-11-04T11:19:00.003+08:00

Hello readers! Its been a long time. Yeah, to make it short..I have an awesome bday with an awesome cake (as you can see below). My boyfriend totally gimme a surprise from designing the cake, buying me presents up until celebrating with me with my family. Sorry for I kinda lazy to write so much.. Blogging is no longer my hobby now because I am so tired with my intern work. Although I have to admit that I actually did nothing in the office, but I am still freaking tired every time I got back home. Shall update more bout my presents, interns and pictures soon. Nitez!

2011-09-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

Its not an update of mine. Just a rubbish post to express my frustration. So you may click away from my post if you dun wanna waste your time.

Say easy, do hard! Words are easier to say than to action!

Everyone has a good life. They are born to deserve that life. Why not me?

I dun have a good life? I am stupid? I am a loser?

I am useless.

WARNING! I am not insulting myself poorly to make you pity me. I dun need people to pity me. Who can I blame for having me to facing this kind of situation? Yeah, I am going to blame myself for I am not as lucky as people. I am always the one tagging behind. I always choose wrongly.

Done releasing my frustration.

Sign off!

Do You Understand?

2011-08-01T22:35:00.002+08:00

I dun fit in this place where I am now is the best thing to describe me. I have given much thought of why am I here and the only answer is that I made the wrong decision. I knew very well that there isn't a rewind button for me to undo everything. Regret is not the word that I want to know and understand of. Crying is not the best way to solve the problem either. Is keep walking the best way for me? I know what I should and should not do but I do not know where to begin and how to begin. Correctly speaking, I do not have the initiative to move. I am such a loser. Yeah! God Bless Me!

Obstacle

2011-07-27T17:07:00.001+08:00

I have not achieved anything yet. Will I be ... ? Am I a ...? Is this forever?

The END

Rojak feelings

2011-07-08T00:14:00.002+08:00

My room is hot and stuffy.

My brain is overloaded with theories.

My eyes are complaining that they are tired.

My backache.

My jealousy grows.

There are some fucking idiots riding on motorbike shouting at this hour 12:17AM at the back alley of my house.

I wish I am her.

I wish I am him.

I think there's something wrong with me.

I better continue with my studies and hit the sack asap.

Nitez ~

Who Says

2011-07-07T21:10:00.003+08:00

Nananananananana.......

I'm blogging again. My brain is overloaded with Electronic Marketing theories. FTW! I'm tired of all these Internet theories but yet, Internet (example, Facebook and Blogger) is one of the best way for me to release stress and divert my attention a little bit.

Another song to recommend you people.

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
Hey!
You made me insecure,
Told me I wasn't good enough.
But who are you to judge
When you're a diamond in the rough.
I'm sure you got some things
You'd like to change about yourself.
But when it comes to me,
I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
I'm no beauty queen.
I'm not just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You've got every right
To a beautiful life.
Come on!

Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's heard it?
Trust me,
That's the curse of beauty.
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

It's such a funny thing
How nothing's funny when it's you.
You tell me whatcha mean,
But they keep whiting out the truth.
It's like a work of art
That never gets to see the light.
Keep you beneath the stars,
Won't let you touch the sky.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/selena_gomez/who_says.html ]
I'm no beauty queen.
I'm just beautiful me.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You've got every right
To a beautiful life.
Come on!

Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's heard it?
Trust me,
That's the curse of beauty.
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

Who says you're not star potential?
Who says you're not presidential?
Who says you can't be in movies?
Listen to me, listen to me.
Who says you don't pass the test?
Who says you can't be the best?
Who said?
Who said?
Would you tell me who said that?
Yeah~
Who said?

Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's heard it?
Trust me,
That's the curse of beauty.
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's heard it?
Trust me,
That's the curse of beauty.
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says your not beautiful?
Who says?

I Wouldn't Say That

2011-07-05T22:13:00.005+08:00

Yellow people. Yellow means Hello in my speaking language. Dun misunderstand it as the recent hot topic of the Bersih Rally. I don't wanna get caught for that.

My title, I wouldn't say that... Say what? Yeah right, the title is incomplete. Remember my previous post on Good Life FTW? Kenny Pig commented that its a bad life. I sort of agree with him but I wouldn't call this a bad life. In fact, I should enjoy it as I will graduate soon. Thus, I call this a Busy Life. Agree?

Btw Kenny Pig, update your blog lar. Its been a year plus already. I see spider webs all around your blog. Ishhhhh

My busy life includes mid-terms, assignments, presentations and final year project which I needa settle in these few weeks time. FTW! Oh ya, I kinda love this term now. LOL ~

And did you realize one thing? I tend to update my blog frequently when I'm busy. Like for now, I am supposed to be revising for Electronic Marketing mid-term test for this Saturday. But somehow I don't have the motivation to study and my fingers just automatically click the mouse and here I am, BLOGGING. God bless me!

Recently, I have a new toy. Welcome to Samantha's house, Domo-kun. Here's some pic of my Domo-kun.

Torturing my Domo-kun

Enjoying the ride

Sitting on my lappie

Domo-kun finishes his dinner

Domo-kun takes a bite of my Marble Cheese Cake

I bought a Domo-kun keychain too. But I didn't take picture of 2nd Domo though. Next time perhaps. Have a nice day readers ~

Good Life FTW

2011-07-04T13:29:00.004+08:00

Woke up in Kampar yesterday
Found myself in the city near UTAR
Don't really know how I got here
I got bundle of notes on the table

New subjects and assignments that I don't know
Harder than Albert Einstein works on his E =MC2
Day turns to night, night turns to whatever we want
We're smart enough to say

[Chorus]

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh

[Verse 2]

To my friends in Ipoh, I say hello
My friends in Kuala Lumpur they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Ipoh to Kampar and back to Ipoh

Sometimes there's exams I can' t walk off
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
Why there is so much things for me to complain about

[Bridge 1]

When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in

[Chorus]

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh
A good good life Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh

Sorry if I turn this song into a bad one. HAHA.. I found the lyrics too fascinating. How bout you guys? Wish you all have a good life too.

In the Shadow

2011-06-26T10:36:00.002+08:00

Abundant of feelings in me.

I'm lost.
No motivation to work on my stuffs.
Lazy.
Tired with UTAR life.
Not ready for this and that.

Till now.

How I Spoilt my Adidas shoes?

2011-06-16T20:37:00.003+08:00

Ah, its been such a long time since I last update my blog. Hello everyone. I'm bored stuck in my hostel. You know, my class finish at Thursday but I can only go back on Friday because my brother's class finishes on Friday 2PM some more.

Yeap, so my story today is illustrated through my title. How I Spoilt my Adidas? Ppl wear Adidas, I wear Adidas. But why my shoes spoilt so fast? Okay lar, gotta admit that its not fast. I have wore this shoes for quite some time.. Ahem.. Quite some years.. 2 years plus already. But I expect sport shoes can last longer right? Thats why I buy branded sport shoes.

My previous pair of Nike also doesn't last long. Its life span is less than 2 years only. Same goes to my Reebok. I am starting to wonder if there's some problem with the shoes itself or its my leg problem. Maybe my legs EAT the shoes I think. HAHAHA

So the Adidas that I have been wearing to uni all along has accompany me for 2 good years. I walked miles wearing it, wore it during rainy days and cycle to uni as well. Selepas mengharungi banyak rintangan, akhirnya, tamatlah riwayat Adidas saya ini.

When its still NEW

Getting dirtier and dirtier

The plastic pieces came off

Maybe I tiptoed a lot, so the front of the shoes, the slightly curve plastic starts to crack. Here, the story begins. I was attending lecture yesterday. My hand goes itchy and I went to touch the crack on my shoes. As I touched, my fingers tried to pull the plastic off slightly (without the intent to pull it out) and in just a millisecond, the plastic came off. So I place it back on place but since I dun have a glue with me that time, the plastic pieces came out while I walked. I didn't even realized when it came out. HAHAHA

Thus, end of the story.

Meaningful Song to Someone Someone

2011-06-03T02:05:00.003+08:00

惡作劇 - 王藍茵

我找不到很好的原因
去阻擋這一切的情意
這感覺太奇異
我抱歉不能説明

我相信這愛情的定義
奇蹟會發生也不一定
風溫柔的清晰也許飄來好消息

一切新鮮有點冒險
請告訴我怎麼走到終點
沒有人瞭解沒有人像我
和陌生人的愛戀

我想我會開始想念你
可是我剛剛才遇見了你
我懷疑這奇遇只是個惡作劇 ah~

我想我已慢慢喜歡你
因為我擁有愛情的勇氣
我任性投入你給的惡作劇
你給的惡作劇

我找不到很好的原因
去阻擋這一切的情意
這感覺太奇異
我抱歉不能說明

我相信這愛情的定義
奇蹟會發生也不一定
風溫柔的清晰也許飄來好消息

我才發現你很耀眼
請讓我再瞧瞧你的雙眼
沒有人瞭解沒有人像我
和陌生人的愛戀

我想我會開始想念你
可是我剛剛才遇見了你
我懷疑這奇遇只是個惡作劇 ah~

我想我已慢慢喜歡你
因為我擁有愛情的勇氣
我任性投入你給的惡作劇
你給的惡作劇

English translation

I can't find a good reason
to stop this affection I have
This feeling is too complicated,
I'm sorry, I can't explain it

I believe the meaning of this love
is that miracles have a few possibilities of happening
Maybe the pure and gentle wind will blow in good news

Everything requires fresh expreience, and contains risks
Please tell me how to make it to the end
Nobody understands, unlike me and the stranger I'm in love with

I think I will begin to miss you
though I just saw you a moment ago
I suspect that this unusual meeting is only a practical joke

I think I will slowly continue to like you
because I have the courage to love
I've sunk myself into the practical joke you've played
The practical joke you've played

I can't find a good reason
to stop this affection I have
This feeling is too complicated,
I'm sorry, I can't explain it

I believe the meaning if this love
is that miracles have a few possibilities of happening
Maybe the pure and gentle wind will blow in good news

I've dicovered that your secret weapon are your dazzling eyes
Please let me continue to look at them
Nobody understands, unlike me and the stranger I'm in love with

I think I will begin to miss you
though I just saw you a moment ago
I suspect that this unusual meeting is only a practical joke

I think I will slowly continue to like you
because I have the courage to love
I've sunk myself into the practical joke you've played
The practical joke you've played

LALALA ~

2011-05-28T22:37:00.002+08:00

Yeap, looks like its time to update my blog a little. FYI, the day after tomorrow is the day I officially become a final year student. After 1 year of Foundation studies and 2 years of degree (which made up a total of 3 years I've spent in Kampar), I have finally reached the last year aka FINAL year.

I don't wanna drag the story long as I'm tired of typing (not feeling that well but can still face the laptop screen), I'm gonna make it short here. Just 2 words explain everything that I'm facing now.

I'm LOST !!

Lost in terms of many aspects. For example, studies, love, interns, self-improvement VS willingness to do, future career blah blah blah.

These are some updates on me.. I dun wish to blog so much on my personal life because I dun want "certain" ppl to see and know bout me. You know who you are and how fcuk-ing annoying you are. You think you are smart then go along and play with me. You will regret it for messing with the wrong people, you fcuk-ing jerk.

I know my blog is public and I should have known that everyone is free and has the right to read..and there's no way I can stop people from reading my blog unless I make it private. But if I make it private, then there's no need to invite certain readers to read it. Its an extra act I supposed. Its either you let people read or you keep it as a secret.

Btw, most important of all..I must give some credits to my beloved for giving me encouragement and supports all the time. I'm grateful for everything you did for me. Enjoy the time we spent together this semester break. Muacks ~

Lastly, *making wishes*. My wishes are secret. Shhhhhh ~~~ Hope my wishes come true.

I'm kinda ready for the start of next semester. Y3S1, here I come. GO !!!!!!!!

Ryan Cabrera - True

2011-05-18T09:19:00.002+08:00

This is one of my favourite songs so far. I'm dedicating this song to "someone someone". And thank you for you're always there for me when I needed you most.

Cup Noodles

2011-05-06T12:44:00.002+08:00

While waiting for my noodles to cook itself in 3 minutes time, I decided to blog this out of boredom. Well, boredom of waiting, not free till nothing to do. Its the busiest period I am having now, with exams coming up one after another. Thank God, I have completed the second paper today. Blah blah blah, not going to blog much bout my current situation.

Back to my topic, cup noodles. When was the last time I eat cup noodles ar? 1 year ago? 2 years ago? Life in Kampar is so kesian, especially during exam periods where you are lazy to go out to dine and you have no idea what to eat if you call delivery. So I gotta stick to cup noodles. Not always, but once or twice for this busiest period of mine I guess.

Crap, I blog too much and now my noodles become soggy rdy. Gotta enjoy my brunch for today. Have a nice day readers!

Journey to Life

2011-03-22T11:06:00.004+08:00

Humans are evil! Why said so? Nothing. Emo perhaps. Hate myself for having this curiosity. Having curiosity is good, it makes studying so much better. But knowing more doesn't mean its a good thing. The more you know, the more you suffered.

Gosh, why humans are that complicated? Can't God make every single living species in this world simple and innocent? Then there will not be war, arguments, bloodshed, backstabbing against each other. Guess I am too simple to survive in this cruel world. I cannot keep up to the pace at which this world is moving. I am way behind. To survive, humans need to sacrifice others in order to get something. A clear example to be seen in working place. Business world is cruel. There is way too much for me to learn. With such simple and slow brain of mine, I dun think I will be able to achieve what I want.

I needa upgrade myself. Spend less time in watching anime and Vampire Diaries. HAHA.. Time to pick up a newspaper ( I dun read newspaper, only read The Star Online. I know I'm pathetic.), financial magazines and learn more on business world. To tell the truth, I can't even remember all the names of the big people in politics. Now I realize that I dun really give a d*** bout what's really happening in this world, and to my own country. I tend to take things for granted. Spending money without knowing how hard to earn a single cent.

What contribution have I made so far in this 20 years? Sure I have made a lot, but did that really help? Did my contribution help others? Are they happy?

How bout you all? Have you ever asked yourself what have you contribute to this world? Did you live your life meaningfully?

A good question to myself. Did I spend my life meaningfully for the past 20 years? I need to seriously think about this.

Random Crap

2011-03-21T21:08:00.004+08:00

Someday, sometimes, something are meant to be kept as memories. If its past, its past. No reason to dig out the past and causes everyone unhappy. People should always look for the future, and not the past. Too indulge in past memories will only lead to unhappiness. So, I should kept my mouth shut.

Attitudes and behaviors are hard to change. If everyone can change for the good, then this world has too many PERFECT people already. If I were to change myself for the better, I think its good. People around me will love me more. But if I change, then it would not be me. I wanna be myself, but at the same time, I wanna change for the better.

Just some random thoughts after gone through some articles. Blogs are meant for people to crap right? To cure your boredom, I crap stories to entertain you all. Muahahahaha

Cheers ~ And HAVE A NICE DAY!

Direction Change!

2011-03-18T13:44:00.004+08:00

Sorry Damon. Change of preferences. I'm so into Stefan now seeing his lovey-dovey scene with Elena. Just finished watching Episode 13 of Season 2. I like the scene where Stefan said I love you to Elena in front of Caroline house. Its so sweet.

I'm on Stefan's side now.

The Month of March

2011-03-16T23:46:00.007+08:00

I'm sure most UTARians hate March because it brings nothing but stress, suffers, tiredness etc. Same goes to me as well. I hate this year's March but at the same time, I cannot completely hate this month because my Cupido's bday falls on March. HAHAHA

I know lar. My close friends who knew whats happening around me recently will start to feel "sien" (bored) jor when I bring Cupido out. HAHA. So you people are free to move your mouse cursor to the upper right hand side and click "Close" because this post is dedicated to my dear Cupido. If you people feels bored and want to read something to fill up your time or you people wanna know out of curiosity (in other words, "38"), then fill free to continue reading this. And if you are still reading this, then you really are "38" (except my Cupido). HAHAHA

Dear Cupido,

As a uni student, there are certain weeks where I needa tire myself, stay up late to study for tests, do assignments and etc. I am quite adapt to this kinda life already but this time around, its totally different because I needa restrain myself from missing you plus not being able to see you for ONE month!

I knew you feel the same and more than mine. You are worried of me when I got sick and I am too. So I wanna tell you not to overwork yourself and don't give yourself too much stress. Sleep early ( I know this one is a bit hard because of the phone calls at night, but I dun feel like hanging up actually) and eat healthily.

Just 8 more days to go only. Gambateh Cupido! Luuuuuuup you.

♥ So far yet so near ♥

PS, I super duper likey this pic! ♥ ♥

~The Story of Cupido~

Dear Cupido

2011-03-08T11:54:00.004+08:00

♥ Happy Birthday to my Cupido! ♥

With lots of ♥,

Cupipi

HELP ME!

2011-02-16T02:47:00.002+08:00

Okiez, its almost 3am now and I'm still awake. Reason? I'm too worried to fall asleep. Its Week 5 now. Forget bout the 6 assignments deadline which is mostly on Week 9 and presentations coming soon, I'm feared of mid-terms now. 5 mid-terms fall on Week 7. Some during lecture class and some on Saturday or Sunday maybe. Forget bout not being able to go back to home sweet home, can I survive 5 papers in a week? I don't just wanna pass, I wanna score. And to make matter worse, I've not been attending all the classes with you know, CNY going on last week and so many public holidays here and there. I kinda missed too many classes and still quite blur even though I'm now in Week 5.

Argh!!! Week 7 onwards will be a horrible starting point to MK students. "Enjoy" your day UTARians!

2011-01-26T13:10:00.002+08:00

I love this song very much. Have been listening to it so often recently. I like the music. Not really understand the lyrics much. I always heard him singing 我爱你 (I love you) only. Guess my Chinese is not bad. I can type the pinyin out. Anyway, enjoy the song. Shall update my blog soon.

Year 2 Semester 3

2011-01-21T09:06:00.003+08:00

First week begins and over in a blink of an eye. I'm seriously quite blur in these new subjects and I missed all classes on Tuesday. So, I only went to 2 days of class for Week 1 since Thursday is a public holiday and I dun have classes on Friday.

Despite being blur, I kinda think that all the assignments are kinda similar for each subject. So I think that its not hard to do them but I have the feeling that I will mix up all the contents in it when I typed. And I think Marketing students are being haunted by "management". Out of the 6 subjects that I took this sem, 5 of it are management related course which are Operations Management, Logistic Management, Service Management, Customer Relationship Management and English for Management. I've always known that I have chosen the wrong course to study. Kinda regret that I didn't take Science back then. But since I have went this far, shouldn't have stop now.

But once again, how many English subjects they want us to take? I'm tired of English. Always on letter writing, articles and grammar. Even the exam formats are same. Whats the difference between English for Business and English for Management? And for Foundation students, not to forget that we have taken Writing for Business and Writing for Mass Comm before. Can I be exempted from English for God's sake?

I complained too much? Haha, just bear with it lar. Its not like I update my blog so often now. Seeing my friends update their blog has triggered me to do so as well.

From here onwards, this one is dedicated for MK TG1. After so many semesters, finally most of us ended in different class because its hard to register for our timetable. Our class can no longer be the largest and noisiest in tutorial groups rdy. Kinda feel sad. So we should have more gatherings or "yum cha" this semester. Plus, more Mafia games. And hopefully all of us get to be in the same class again next semester.

This one for Boss Chi Wei. Wondering whether you got read my blog or not but anyway, all the best to you. I'm sure that TG1 will visit you soon in Taiping.

MK TG1

The so-called memorandum pic with half-of-my-face missing

Semester Break

2010-12-27T22:34:00.002+08:00

Enjoying my second week of break now. Went to Hatyai with family last week. Overate during lunch and ate some grilled octopus at night the day before going back. End up with diarrhea the next day. Have been suffering at the back of the car through the whole journey with headache and nausea.

Spend time with Chicky and Min Jie on Christmas. We had lunch at McD and I suggested that we go sing karaoke as it was such a rare chance that I can gather "bananas" together so that I can choose ALL English songs. We headed to Ipoh Parade and forgetting that day was Christmas, it was superb hard to find parking. After round and round and round, finally we found a spacious parking space with the sign "disabled". Well well well, being so "highly educated and morale", we decided to take that empty slot in half second thought.

The shopping complex is so lively during Christmas. We were shocked to see so many people standing in front of Red Box or Yellow Box or whatever box. I don't remember the name since they don't let me sing. All rooms are fully booked by those "lala-zai and lala-mui" already. The time slot that the person in charge gave me was around 4 sth and ends at 6 sth. We gotta gave up our singing and jumping dream because we need to get back home to have dinner with our families.

End up with no choice (bowling is also packed with people), we went for a movie. We watched Tron Legacy. I'm glad I understand the story though I'm a bit dumb with all the "too high tech stuff" in the movie. What I dislike bout Ipoh GSC is that the seatings are so uncomfortable and the people there are so inconsiderate. Even though there's no ad showing that we need to put our mobiles to silent mode, but you are not first time watching a movie right. The gal sitting next to me can chat loudly some more during the movie. Feel like telling her to shut up but she got a boy boy next to her. So I better not. And throughout the whole movie, her head has been leaning on her boy boy's shoulder. Can she watch the movie with 45 degrees senget? And not just her, there's a few more idiots who think that their ringtones are so nice to hear that they "forgot" to put it to silent mode. TGV is thousands time better than GSC.

While waiting for the time to go for the movie, we walked around and have some sushi snacks at Sushi King. One funny thing is when we went to toilet. When we entered, we saw 3 "lala-mui" standing in front of the mirror, posing with cute cute looks. You knew what they are doing rite? HAHA.. Yeah, camwhoring. While I was waiting for the toilet, I saw them occupying the places where people wanna wash their hands, 1 making a cute look, another 2 making puffy face like a fish, enlarging their eyeballs and squeezing their mouth small. It was quite a scene to look at but I dun laugh at them because I had done this silly thing before, but not as silly as them. They were still there when I came out of the toilet. I wonder what is so nice about camwhoring in Ipoh Parade toilets. The toilets there must have smell much more good than the fresh air outside to them.

After the movie, its nearly 6pm. One by one, all of us received calls from our parents asking where are you, faster come back dinner, etc. Being the so-called more mature than those "lala-mui" in the toilet, we snap a pic for memory at ........... the car park. I know its kinda swt. We are not quite use to take pics all the time. HAHA

Great aunt Kim showed me her iPad today. It was so cool. She said buy in Australia is cheaper. Have been thinking wanna buy it or not, but I have decided not to buy it because I dun think I need it since I already have a laptop.

And I like Great aunt Kim because she always brings us lots of chocolate souvenirs when she visits us. And she even bring souvenirs for the doggies. Pig ears and bones.

Bro is entering NS camp next Monday. Its gonna be tough for me and my youngest bro because all these times, bro has been doing all the gardening work and most important of all, taking care of the 5 dogs in the house. Now that he is gone, sigh.........

I' ve learnt to wear contact lens recently. Shall upload the pic later coz I'm kinda lazy. Enough of the updates. Talk soon. Bye.

Twilight vs Vampire Diaries

2010-11-24T14:19:00.005+08:00

I'm still watching Vampire Diaries Season 1. Will buy the novels this coming sem break. When I was watching the first episode of Vampire Diaries, I felt that the characters were not as beautiful as Twilight. Maybe I haven't read the book yet plus I support Twilight first. But as I kept on watching episodes after episodes, I found some interesting topic to talk bout.

In both stories, two guys like the same gal. The gal will be confused over who to choose in the end.

Vampire Diaries

Twilight

I personally think that Elena as in V.D. is prettier than Bella in Twilight. However, Bella looks more outstanding compared to Elena who is quite common looking in the movie.

Elena Gilbert in Vampire Diaries

Bella Swan in Twilight

Time for the hawtt guys. The male lead for V.Diaries, Stefan Salvatore. He is hot and cool, but not as handsome as the gorgeous Edward Cullen.

Stefan Salvatore in Vampire Diaries

Edward Cullen in Twilight

The second male lead, Damon Salvatore in V.D with Jacob Black in Twilight. I chose Damon over Jacob. Damon is so handsome and I'm attracted towards him even though he is the bad guy. I like Damon more than Stefan. As for Jacob, I dun really like him. But most of my friends like him. They say he's hot. Well I think that Jacob is disrupting Edward and Bella.

Damon Salvatore in Vampire Diaries

He's so hawtt

I'm drooling over him already

Jacob Black in Twilight

Which one do you prefer? Damon or Jacob? I'll go for Damon 100%

In the beginning, I found that Vampire Diaries is quite scary, especially the scene where the vampires attack humans. I'm surprised why I have the thoughts that being a vampire is not a bad thing in Twilight. But after I watch Vampire Diaries, I have to think twice. In Twilight, The Cullens family is like a very high class, up to fashion and pretty vampires. One more thing, rich. When they smell blood, their faces doesn't change. In Vampire Diaries, its another thing. Vampires's faces change when they smell blood.

Stefan face change - scary

While reading Twilight, as the third person, I support Edward to change Bella so that they could live happily ever after. As for V.Diaries, I don't think its a good idea if Stefan changes Elena. In Twilight, Carlisle Cullen only changes human to vampire when they are about to die. To save their lives. But in V.D. the story is a bit cruel.

The Salvatore brothers

Damon Salvatore is my hot favourite now. Hehe

Sweet Mood

2010-11-19T14:07:00.004+08:00

I'm fine. I think I am too emotional and over-reacted last two weeks. Anyway, I'm in a good mood now. IM assignment is done and submitted today. I'm not worrying much on this assignment because what done is done. Just don't make the "same" mistake again next time.

So what make my mood so good? Well, few days ago, Mom called and said she will come to visit me with bro this Saturday since I'm not going back this week. Its my first time staying in Kampar for two weeks after studying here for like 2 years plus. Anyway, I made some changes in this plan. My group members and I managed to finish up MADM assignment in just a few days time. Its quite incredible actually since we are the latest group to begin but can be consider as the first group to finish it. I spent almost 5 hours last night editing and finalizing the whole assignment. The rest of the parts like cover page, reference and conclusion I shall leave them for my group members to finish them up.

So I am going back to Ipoh this Sunday morning after Moral exam. But need to come back to Kampar on Monday morning again for class. Haiz .. Anyway, its better than nothing since I am craving for some nice Japanese cuisine and I miss my bed and my doggies. Most important of all, I'm sick of washing clothes and eating Kampar's food.

Now, I need to study hard for my IM exam tomorrow and Moral for Sunday. Wish me luck!

Song Music = My Mood

2010-11-13T02:43:00.004+08:00

I have always love to watch anime. Nana is one of my favorites so far. Two-thumbs-up for this anime OST. Recently, I'm quite emo. HAHA . . No worries . . Life's still going on normally. I keep on playing this two songs so that I could fall asleep. The lyrics are beautifully written and what I like best is the music. Its a very sad piece of music that match my feelings now.

Winter Sleep- OLIVIA inspi' REIRA (TRAPNEST)

It keeps coming back to me

I remember this pain

It spreads across my eyes

Everything is dull

Everyone's smiling, they're smiling

It pushes me far, oh far away

I can not understand

Everything is blue

Can you hear me out there?

Will you hold me now...

Hold me now

My frozen heart

I'm gazing from the distance and...

I feel everything pass through me

I can't be alone right now

Will you hold me now

Hold me now

My frozen heart

I'm lost in a deep winter sleep

I can't seem to find my way out alone

Can you wake me

I know when I let it in

It hides love from this moment

So I guard it close

I watch the moves it makes

But it gets me, but it gets me

I wish I could understand how I

Could make it disappear...

Make it disappear

Anyone out there hear me now?

Will you hold me now

Hold me now

My frozen heart

Kiss my lips and maybe you can

Take me to your world for now

I can't be alone right now

Olivia inspi' Reira(trapnest) Nana - A Little Pain

Travel to the moon

When you fall asleep, your dreams will be safe

There is nobody here, so the mesmerizing light of the stars will last forever

I forgot the smile that would make me strong

Surely the two of us will be together

Please realize

I'm here waiting for you

Even if the future will be different from now

I'm here waiting for you

And I keep shouting it out

Our hearts will forever be connected to each other

Til the day I wake you up...

No need to cry

Travel in silence

I extend my hand to feel you, yet

You're so far away

That memory is etched within me

When I hear your voice as I close my eyes

Even a little pain is precious to me

See me now,

I'm here waiting for you

When I'm all alone being blown by the wind

I'm here waiting for you

I can see the entire sky

Truly inside my heart, my hands stretch out to protect

Your heart, until you come back

No need to cry

(Feel something, Feel nothing)

(Listen closely, listen closely)

Wide open ears

Disarm the dream tickler

In the constant moment

(You will find me where it's quiet)

(Listen closely, listen closely)

Let the blood flow

Through all the spaces

Please realize

I'm here waiting for you

Even if the future will be different from now

I'm here waiting for you

And I keep shouting it out

Our hearts will forever be connected to each other

Til the day I wake you up...

No need to cry

(Listen closely, listen closely)

Frustrated

2010-11-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

Done my Marketing Analysis & Decision Making (MADM) mid-term. One word, disappointed.

MADM lecturer postponed the assignment due date from next Monday to the following Monday. Feel happy initially. I thought I can go back home to see my little brother next Saturday after exams. Thats why I'm staying over this week in Kampar to finish MADM and IM assignments up. But luck isn't always on my side. This week is Week 4. That stupid Moral lecturer postponed Moral exam from next Saturday to next Sunday. This means I need to stay in Kampar for 2 weeks. To make matter worse, Moral campaign is on Week 7, which means a large probability that the rehearsal will commence on Week 6. Then, I have a soft skill to attend on Week 7 Saturday. Means I can't go back home when my house is just 45 minutes away from Kampar?

I don't really understand. Its just Moral. Why do we need to go through all the troubles like attending 3 hours lecture each week, doing assignment, mid-term and campaign? Does this really help Malaysians to have high morale? Malaysians study Moral from Standard 1 till Form 5. Try open the newspapers and see, you can find crimes done by Malaysians aged from as young as 16 or even younger. Then whats the point of studying so much Moral ar? I'm not here to say that its bad to study Moral, but it just doesn't work. This is a fact.

And so, what can I do? I'm not going to care bout the stupid campaign. I will go back on Week 6. I don't care if my group members scold me or what so ever. I know many people will find me weird because I always wanna go home so desperately. I'm not going to explain. My stories can go on pages long. My first priority is that I wanna meet my little brother. Stupid Moral, I HATE YOU!

I'm Unhappy

2010-11-09T18:58:00.003+08:00

Feeling sad now. I called home just now and Mom told me that my little brother is beaten by his senior. He has bruises somewhere near armpit there and my Mom applied medicine on it. I seldom see my little brother cried except when he got scolded by Dad. Mom told me he cried on the way back home. This ache my heart and I cried as well. I ask my parents to go to the school and complained how serious is this matter to the teacher, but my little brother insist that he can settle it himself. He said he already told his teacher. But I insist my Dad to make a complaint. Too bad I'm in Kampar, if not I will definitely scold the teachers and demand to see that violent student and his parents.

My parents thought sending my little brother to private school would be better than attending public school because the students would behave better. My younger brother attends public school and he told Mom that his school got gangsters lar, smokers lar, so Mom sent little bro to private school. Who knows private school behaved worst. To make matter worst, my little brother is a prefect. Prefects are always hated by gangsters.

I miss my little brother now. And I know cursing people is wrong but I would curse that stupid boy who bully my brother. You think you are bigger in size and age then can bully people ar? Your parents are dummies who do not know how to educate their roast pork (char siew). May you be beaten by other gangsters in the future. Curse you. Go die lar. Damn angry now. Feel like going to his school tomorrow to kick that bastard ass.

Love At First Sight

2010-10-31T21:46:00.004+08:00

They're both convinced
that a sudden passion joined them.
Such certainty is beautiful,
but uncertainty is more beautiful still. Since they'd never met before, they're sure
that there'd been nothing between them.
But what's the word from the streets, staircases, hallways --
perhaps they've passed each other a million times? I want to ask them
if they don't remember --
a moment face to face
in some revolving door?
perhaps a "sorry" muttered in a crowd?
a curt "wrong number" caught in the receiver?
but I know the answer.
No, they don't remember
They'd be amazed to hear
that Chance has been toying with them
now for years. Not quite ready yet
to become their Destiny,
it pushed them close, drove them apart,
it barred their path,
stifling a laugh,
and then leaped aside. There were signs and signals,
even if they couldn't read them yet.
Perhaps three years ago
or just last Tuesday
a certain leaf fluttered
from one shoulder to another?
Something was dropped and then picked up.
Who knows, maybe the ball that vanished
into childhood's thicket? There were doorknobs and doorbells
where one touch had covered another
beforehand.
Suitcases checked and standing side by side.
One night, perhaps, the same dream,
grown hazy by morning. Every beginning
is only a sequel, after all,
and the book of events
is always open halfway through.

A poem by Wislawa Szymborska . Yeah, I post this last year. Can't help but re-post it again because this poem is so beautiful.

Do you believe in love at first sight? Some said yes, some said no. For me, my answer is yes and no. Yes because I would like to experience this someday. No because this sounds a little bit childish.

Do you believe that love is determined by fate? Or do you think that we must fight for love ourselves?

Ah, I'm 20

2010-10-31T00:47:00.003+08:00

Its 31st October, Happy Halloween. This year's birthday is great. I didn't do anything special on my birthday, nor did my family. All I did was eat, sleep and watch tv. Grandma and Uncle Ben gave me angpow (red packet) and we have dinner at Kampai, my fav Japanese restaurant.

Nothing special on my birthday. Friends asked me, "Dun you feel lonely? You dun have activities on your b'day?" My answer is, "No, I dun feel lonely. Does sleeping and watching tv considered as activities?" HAHA

Honestly speaking, I really felt happy and contented. What can I ask for when I can be with my family members and most important of all is that I'm healthy? I already have friends celebrating for me on two different days, family eating dinner with me and I received presents. Not many, but it touched my heart. Sincere is what I need. But don't give me a stone you pick on the road lar, I will take 100 stones and throw you back.

Well well well, but I do have a great surprise on my b'day. Ogui actually bought me a present and deliver it straight to my house. GPS rocks.

Once again, thank you all for the celebration, presents and wishes. Praying that next year would be better.

Coming Soon

2010-10-29T18:10:00.002+08:00

Have McD with Rui Ying and Chee Ann. Then I bought a packet of flour so that we could play later (as suggusted by Chee Ann). Initially, we planned to play at Beijing, but since the Rain God doesn't wanna go away, we headed to Chee Ann's house.

The cake is cute. We didn't ate much, but used all the pink cream to make up our face and do some highlight on our hair.

Going to Chee Ann's house to play flour was the right decision because his house has a water pipe. And thus, a flour game begins between us. At first, Pei Yi, Yin Syn, Kenny and Thomas are reluctant to play. Only Rui Ying, Chee Ann and me are so eager to play. I just need some flour and use my sweet words to start their engine and in the end, all of us ended up in a mess. We washed our hair with shampoo outside the house. My first time experience. HAHA

Rick and Yoke Kwan enjoys watching us from the balcony with June and July (their sons aka doggies). I'm eagerly waiting for Chee Ann's birthday now so that I can take my revenge on them.

And thank you TA4 members for spending some quality time with me. I love you all!

Teenage Dream

2010-10-28T08:06:00.005+08:00

How do you feel when you are about to leave the teenage world and enter the twenties? People said, "Once you step into twenty, you can see that your age will grow faster each year, to the thirties, forties and etc." I've not given much thought what kinda person will I turn into when I step into different age groups, but I do have plans and what I would like to achieve once I turn twenty.

Yeah, typical people will usually said turning twenty means you are old. I think like this as well. Kinda sad to think of this coz I can't used this reason to gain privileges or act young already.

Anyway, the title Teenage Dream is not like the lyrics sang by Kate Perry lar. I think I have everything what a normal teenager dreams of, such as a happy family, education, money (to buy necessities only, not wishlist) and friends. I'm contented with my life. Did I left out anything? Yeah, my wishlist is growing each day but I have just owned some of it only. Opps, there's one thing that I really left out. A boyfriend. LMAO! Many gals have boyfriends which they turned them into slaves. Should I put this into my wishlist as well? Muahahahaha

1 year passed so fast. I remembered how MK TG1 gave me a surprise last year. And in a blink of an eye, here comes the next surprise. Really appreciate you all so much for willing to spend time celebrating for me despite we have 1 whole day of class from 8am to 8pm. HAHA

18-year-old ME (forget bout the cartoon I add there, its use to cover my smelly pillow)

19-year-old ME

Clear difference how I looked like in 18 and 19. 20? Wait until I've reach 20 then I will snap a pic. HAHA

*Shall update more this week. Stay tuned ~

Rich Dad Poor Dad - You Are Smart

2010-10-23T21:14:00.003+08:00

EVERYONE IS BORN SMART!

Every child has a special kind of genius. Not doing well in school doesn't mean that you are stupid. You just learned in a different way than the teachers in school expected you to. Try finding your best way of learning and you will definitely succeed.

We all learn differently. The trick is to find the way you learn best. When you do that, you'll discover your own personal genius.

A genius is someone who excels at something but not necessarily good at everything.

TRUE FACT!

Did you know that Albert Einstein, who thought up the theory E=mc², never did well in school? He wasn't good at memorizing things, yet he grew up to become one of the greatest mathematical thinkers of all the time. His brain focused on ideas rather than facts. Facts, he said, could be found in books, so he never felt the need to keep facts in his head. He wanted his head clear to think creatively.

The way our performance is measured in school has very little to do with how intelligent we really are or how successful we can be. The way we perform in school is usually just a measure of how well we take tests. It's not a true measure of the genius you were born with.

Extracted from Rich Dad Poor Dad by Robert T. Kiyosaki and edited by $amantha Tan

I'm dedicating this post specially to some friends of mine. Please don't feel depressed for doing bad in your exams. Remember, EVERYONE IS SMART!

Kim Bum

2010-10-05T22:07:00.003+08:00

I've come to the conclusion that my No.1 Fav "Leng Zai" (handsome boy) is always Kim Bum. Although from time to time, I will get distracted by other gorgeous actors, but every time I look at Kim Bum pictures, he is always gorgeous.

So don't worry Kim Bum, I will always be your No. 1 fan.

Gorgeous look

Cute

His smile makes me faint

With lots of ♥,

$amantha Tan

Word Verification from Google

2010-10-01T14:16:00.004+08:00

I was reading a blog that I followed and found this interesting post. So I've decided to re-post it. Credits to Alexander The Gay.

Let's learn some new vocabulary, courtesy from Blogger.com Word Verification Program!

babiti: a leisurely, social event whereby one invites friends over to grill some pork and have some tea in the meantime
Example: We had a great babiti last weekend at Paul's!
[etymology: barbeque+babi+tea]

brisb: be right back briskly
Example:
jon[~`hAppY`~]: dude, brisb. toilet
mel//jazz//: quik, game gonna start soon
jon[~`hAppY`~]: can wait one la

cuoughed: to expel air from the lungs suddenly with a harsh noise but with special emphasis so that the intended person will notice that you're trying hint him about something, in front of other people
Example: Janet cuoughed so hard but it was too late as Peter unintentionally spilled the secret to John.

foring: fucking boring
Example: Goodness, this blog is foring!

hetness: to describe very sexy man, but who is straight; see also "hettie"
Example: Yummy, his hetness factor is 9/10! Too bad he's straight, but I think he'll fuck me after some beer and some porn.
[etymology: hot+hetero]

insing: name of a Malaysian boyband wannabe

kenless: Barbie (the doll) after her first breakup

knowifi: a gossip network that someway somehow get all the spicy information out of thin air; highly bitchy
Example: "That's why, you should join our knowifi to get the latest saucy news between Ken and Neil," said Samuel to Leah.
[etymology: know+wifi]

ledear: French for someone beloved
Example: William is Cheryl's ledear.

mirds: Malaysians who only mix with people are like them (from the proverb "Mirds of a feather, flock together")
Example: Alex is a mird, he wanna mix with gay people only... what a snob.

noncombi: separated from a relationship, short for "non-combined"
Example:
Cain: Oh my gawd! Did you know that Jimmy & Pete are noncombi now?!!!!!!!!"
Emmanuel: Shut! Up!
Cain: Seriously!

restsh: a lisped, gay, version of the word "rest"
Example: "Come dah-ling, let'sh restsh now~~"

shipster: a social networking website dedicated to sailors usually used for hookups, popular among straight sailors when pussies are really, really faraway

spaids: a way to cheat the blackjack table by buying some of the other players
Example: "I think Michael spaids Bill... see how he's been winning to whole night," whispered Ben.
[etymology: spades+paid]

tolingsa: refer to Chinese Word Power

turbuno: accidentally killed while standing too near to a moving turbine (refer to LOST pilot episode - see pictures here)
[etymology: terbunuh+turbine]

werse: a very badly written prose
Example: Oh my, I didn't know you're so good at writing werses! (to be said sarcastically)
[etymology: worse+verse]

whinsms: a short text message sent to friends to bitch about something
Example: Adam sent me a whinsms last night, describing how Jonathan didn't ask him for lunch.
[etymology: whine+SMS]

Tell My Story

2010-09-28T18:21:00.003+08:00

Let me tell you my current status. Finals are over by today. Overall, I think I did well in Retail Management and MRIP except Managerial Economics. I think this paper is gonna pull down my CGPA this time. (sigh)

Currently not so in holiday mood. When I have notes to study, I tend to get distracted easily by anime and manga. But when I have no burden or mission, I don't know what to do. Too much time to spend (not like I have a long holiday, just 2 weeks plus only).

My stress level has been increasing again. From pimples, to stomach flu and now insomnia. I only slept for like two hours or so everyday.

Okay, enough of complaining. I have a stupid story to share. Received a SMS from my friend this morning asking for a favor from me. When I was replying, my hp suddenly "hang", then I take the battery out and plan to restart. But no matter how many times I press the ON button, it just won't switch on. I was like OMG, my hp died. What to do? Sooner, when I tried to switch on again, it works. Then only I realize that I actually press the wrong ON button. Before this, I was pressing the "cancel call" button. Have been using the phone for almost a year but still can press the wrong button.

Listen to Your Heart

2010-09-12T16:24:00.005+08:00

A meaningful song. Enjoy!

I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah
you've built a love but that love falls apart
your little piece of heaven turns too dark

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
the precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
they're swept away and nothing is what is seems
the feeling of belonging to your dreams

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

and there are voices
that want to be heard
so much to mention
but you can't find the words
the scent of magic
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

Listen to your heart....mm..mmm

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

Souvenir from Shanghai Expo

2010-09-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

Dad reached home from his business trip in China. He visited this Shanghai Expo. I asked him to capture pictures for me and I was so anxious to see what he had snapped at the Expo. Plan to upload it to Facebook but some pictures are quite blurred and there’s a few hundreds of it. I decided to give up. Haha

Anyway, he bought us some souvenirs. As usual, Dad has peculiar taste in choosing handbags for Mom. I LOL when I saw the Crocodile handbag that Dad bought for Mom. Mom was like, “Dad has bad taste in choosing handbags. The best handbags he had ever bought for me are the Coach and Bally ones which he bought at Germany”. I agreed with this statement. Those handbags that he bought at Japan, Taiwan and China all also very ugly. Hahaha

Dad bought Polo shirts for bro, a skate board for little bro (anxious to see him pokai soon) *evil laugh* and a Shanghai Expo trademark logo speaker in the form of cushion for me. I was like, “Huh, what is this? The box there written that this toy is for a child. How old do you think I am? I’m 20 liao le. Swt.”

What is this thing for? Just pluck your MP3 into this “cushion” and this “cushion” turns to a loudspeaker. But Dad, my MP4 also has loudspeaker function le. But anyway, compared to Mom’s, mine is better. She even asked whether we can exchange our gifts. Haha

Not to forget, there are plenty of chocolates too. That’s what I will remind him to buy at the airport every time he goes overseas. The fridge now still has plenty of chocolates that Grandma bought for us from Japan last month. How can I lose weight when I have constant supply of chocolates? *sigh*

Favourites of the Month

2010-08-23T11:11:00.005+08:00

Favourite Movie

The Sorcerer's Apprentice

Favourite Drama

Nodame Cantabile

Favourite Anime

Nodame Cantabile

Favourite Music

Nodame Cantabile Anime OST

One Republic - Secrets

Favourite "Leng Zai"

Hiroshi Tamaki - superb leng zai

(bye bye Edward Cullen and Kim Bum)

Favourite Toy

14 " Lotso Bear in Toy Story 3

(I like this bear even though I haven't watch TS3 yet)

(really smell like strawberry)

Samantha

2010-08-11T12:52:00.003+08:00

Everybody should know what's the meaning of their names right? True to everybody and me as well. Frankly speaking, I don't know in detailed the meaning of my Chinese name. Never bother to ask or Google it. Shall ask my mom later.

Anyway, I have this name Samantha given by my mother when I was small. I didn't use this name until I was in foundation year because everyone is having difficulty remembering names. Me either. I prefer English names as well.

The meaning of Samantha stands for listener. Checked it last year. Well, this name suits me well because I'm always a good listener. Girlfriends of mine love to share their stories or ask opinions from me. From time to time, I will give them some reaction while listening to their stories and give them some feedback. Soon, after they talked to me once, they will always come back for the second time. I think I should charge them money if they need someone to listen to them and give them opinion.

Remember, chatting with $AMANTHA is expensive. See the sign "$". In my opinion, $amantha means money minded. Hahaha.

Another thing I'm particular of is the pronunciation. Samantha is pronounced as se-Man-theh. Most people would pronounced as Saa-Man-Ta. Totally wrong and its SO WRONG!

And my name Ann-Yen as well. Very few people would pronounced it correctly. I would say only English speaking people (some only) would pronounced it correctly and some Malay people as well because they are very particular in pronouncing English correctly. Ann is read as Anne and the Yen is just like the Japanese currency ¥en. Whats so difficult bout it? Some people said they followed Malays reading and therefore, Ann becomes An (安). Weird lar you all.

2010-08-03T22:28:00.003+08:00

Will update my blog soon. All assignments, presentations and mid-terms shall be over after this Saturday. I'll have more free time to find interesting topics to talk about.

Gambateh peeps!

Some Misunderstanding in My Previous Post

2010-07-11T18:22:00.002+08:00

Maybe some of you get the wrong idea on my previous post, Banana. I am not scolding all the Chinese educated people please. If I were to do that, how can I still faced my friends in the future? Think lar. I am not in that kinda position to make all my friends turn their backs against me and make myself alone and friendless. Understand? I am just scolding some gals in the Japanese class and other random occurrences where they look down on banana, get it?

Some of you didn't knew which is the worst sentence that I have heard before right? Let me tell you just one sentence which is more than enough to hurt you like a slap on your face.

"Chinese people don't know how to speak/read/write Chinese."

Judge yourself and then tell me what wrong I did to scold that kinda arrogant people.

Banana

2010-07-09T22:14:00.004+08:00

Today I'm gonna talk about banana. Yes, banana lar. What kind of banana I wanna talk bout?

Banana that can be eaten?

Not the edible banana, but a banana who doesn't know how to speak, read or write Chinese. I don't know how the term banana eventually used to refer this, I tried to google it but couldn't find a proper answer. Anyway, this topic attracts me to blog about because I have been facing this problem since I entered foundation. Most of the people would call me banana because I do not know how to speak, read and write Mandarin. Eventually, I learn how to speak Mandarin but I'm still having troubles reading and writing. At the very least, I know how to write my name. That's the most important thing I think I should know.

Recently, I attended this soft skills Japanese Language class and I knew I have difficulty in this class. The teacher used Mandarin to conduct the class, its okay with me, but still feeling weird. During the first day of class, the teacher asked who doesn't know Mandarin in this class? I expect there will be at least 1 or 2 people who will raised up their hands, so I raised my hand. Manatau, I'm alone and the whole class looks at me. The next few classes, occasionally, the teacher would asked me if I understand or not. And in the previous class, she asked whether we preferred the class to be conducted in English or Mandarin? When the teacher asked for English, I did not even raised my hand but some girls were aldy looking at me like expecting me to prefer using English. What the fuck is wrong with them? Discriminating or what? I knew I'm the minority in class but that kinda strange expressions in their faces I would damn not forget bout it. Don't know Chinese only, I did not hinder the class performance also. If its to use English to conduct the class also what's wrong with that? Now you all don't understand English meh? If you all damn prefer the class to be conducted in Chinese, then go to Chinese university lar, like there's one in Malaysia. Damn those gals. Fuck them!

Yeah, being a banana is failure. But then, SO WHAT??? Being a banana got wrong meh? At least, I'm proud to be a banana and I'm not afraid to admit that I'm a BIG BANANA!!!! Muahahahaha

More and more people are discriminating bananas nowadays. Just treat me like I'm an uneducated person lar, I don't mind. If those arrogant Chinese educated people think they are so great, then grow wings and fly to the sky lar. Don't stay in front of me to "cucuk mata cucuk hidung". Forgive me for the sudden used of Malay, I'm from Malay school since primary. Kindergarten from English school, MGS.

So, for those Chinese educated people who look down on banana, come punch me if you dare. I will give you a freaking good slap and release all my anger on you instead of my blog. Gambateh to all bananas by the way!

Airplanes

2010-07-03T00:18:00.006+08:00

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

Wish right now, wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

Wish right now, Wish right now

Yeah

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish

To go back to a place much simpler than this

'Cause after all the partyin'

The smashin' and crashin'

And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion

And all the pandemonium and all the madness

There comes a time when you fade to the blackness

And when you're starin' at that phone in yo' lap

And hopin', but them people never call you back

But that's just how the story unfolds

You get another hand

Soon after you fold

And when your plans unravel in the sand

What would you wish for if you had one chance?

So airplanes airplanes

Sorry I'm late

I'm on my way

So don't close that gate

If I don't make that

Then I switch my flight

And I'll be right back at it

By the end of the night

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

Wish right now, wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

Wish right now, wish right now

Yeah

Somebody take me back to the days

Before this was a job

Before I got paid

Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank

Yeah back when I was tryin' to get a tip at Subway

And back when I was rappin' for the hell of it

But now days we rappin' to stay relevant

I'm guessin' that if we can make some wishes out of airplanes

Then maybe oh maybe I'll go back to the days

Before the politics that we call the rap game

And back when ain't nobody listened to my mixtape

And back before I tried to cover up my slang

But this is for Decatur

What's up Bobby Ray?

So can I get a wish to end the politics

And get back to the music that started this shit

So here I stand

And then again I say

I'm hopin' we can make some wishes outta airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

Wish right now, wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

Wish right now, wish right now

Super addicted to this song recently. I love the lyrics.

"Can I pretend the airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I could really use a wish right now!"

I hope its true so that I could always make wishes that will truly come true. ^ ^

Aloha People

2010-06-25T05:11:00.010+08:00

5.11am now. I can't sleep. Since Sunday night until today, I have been having insomnia. I'm tired and I tried to sleep, but every night I just stared at the ceiling in dark for hours until morning. And since I have no class on Friday, I guess I dun need much rest for now. I can sleep secukup-cukupnya when I'm back in Ipoh.

I supposed I never blog bout my new semester yet since the last sem break. Yup, I'm now in Year 2 Sem 1 aldy. So far, this sem seems to be the busiest among the semesters that I have studied before due to certain subjects. Anyway, I hope I can get better and better results in every coming sem so that I could reach my CGPA target.

Thats the first. Second, I attended Tan's Family Reunion Dinner few weeks ago. Attended by approximately 200++ ppl from 2nd till 5th generation. It was indeed a grand reunion where all the Tan's members from Malaysia and overseas came back for. Quite bored for me actually coz there are so many relatives of mine that I have never met before. There was a time back when I was in Form 1, I attended a computer program. This program is actually meant for F5 students and above but my friends and I didn't know bout this. There's this guy in my class. I got to know that his surname is Tan too but this surname very common only. I remembered him well because he's a great student. After a few months when I went for tomb sweeping only I knew he is my relatives. Both of us were surprised because we have never met each other. So swt..I guess its not a good thing to have such a big family.

Okay, back to the reunion dinner. It always begins with "How are you?" and take pictures session. Every family is busy collecting their own family tree album. Then, sambil makan, we listened to speeches by somebody somebody big in the family, listen to the whole history of the family etc..then lightning candle session by 4th (me) and 5th generations, view our family tree on the projector screen and lastly, the dance floor suddenly becomes a disco and everybody floods out to dance.

~this is how I looked like with curl hair~

~my cute cousin, Chloe~

~lightning candle ceremony~

~4th and 5th generation creativity~

Next, went to Penang. Such long time didnt go there aldy. Last time when I was in secondary school, I went to Penang almost every month. Now everybody is busy. Want to find a free weekend also difficult. The funny thing bout this trip is that I didn't even set my foot on the beach. I spent all the time sleeping and shopping. Haha..My mom and I slept a lot because the two of us walked the most. Last time when I was small, it was mom who bargains price for me. Now its my turn to help my mom to bargain price. I am able to slash the price of a Chloe handbag that my mom wants in Batu Ferringhi night market from RM180 to RM110. I originally wanted it at price below RM100, but that person kepts on saying that its full leather and then proof it to me by burning it, this la that la..sienz..RM10 also dont wanna discount. Many passersby were looking at me when I was bargaining. So paiseh. Damn those ppl lar, local ppl punya money also wanna cheat. In conclusion, its definitely better to shop at shopping complex because its all genuinely branded and you dont need to bargain. But branded stuff sometimes cost up to thousands, so its better to buy pirated brands. But I seldom buy lar coz after all, branded stuff is the best!

~Holiday Inn Hotel~

~hi-tea at Gurney Plaza~

Argh, time passes too slow. Have to wait a few more hours for mom to come. Shall stop here then.

Gym

2010-05-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

Just came back from gym with Aunt Francesca, Aunt Sven and Uncle Ben. First time doing "pilates" (balanced body). I thought its just some kinda exercise that I used to do last time when I was having Taekwondo training, but I was so WRONG. Its freaking tired you know. But I freaking like this fitness centre. The facilities there are great plus there's many 'leng zai-s' there for me to "watch". Haha..Then I tried steam bath and sauna. The feeling is great (for steam bath only).

*Forgive me for keep using the word "freaking". Its my fav word today. LOLz.

My Holiday

2010-05-15T20:59:00.004+08:00

Finished my finals on Tuesday. Went to Jusco the next day. Had brunch with mom at Cafe Takahashi.

~my Salmon Cream Pasta~

~mom's Tempura Udon~

Stop by at a cake shop (I forgot the name) and bought some cakes.

~Tiramisu (with alcohol in it)~

This month's Galaxie magazine has Eclipse poster in it. Woohoo!!

I'm still looking for Edward Cullen's single poster though. =(

And here comes my real reason for going straight to Jusco right after finals. To buy Twilight novels.

Thus, I spent these few days reading novels, sleeping and watching tv. I tried to read as slow as I can and I managed to finish the first book in 2 days. =)

Aunt Francesca will be bringing me to gym at Jusco next week. She said I can go there 1 week for FREE. Mom urged me to go so that I can burn some fat. =.=

My nicknames in Foundation TA4 (from Mr. Rick's blog)

2010-04-26T21:39:00.006+08:00

Its been ages since I last visited Rick's blog. Since I'm a bit bored just now, I visited his blog and he put Char/Ala/Sala-mandar as my blog name. It really surprises me that I have been given so many nicknames during foundation times. The first nickname is Charmandar. I think I was given this name becoz I speak like I'm spewing fire from my mouth (from Mr Chee Ann if I'm not mistaken). But in the end, I only spewed chinese tea on him and Rui Ying for 2 times instead of fire. Haha

Charmander in Pokemon

*Thanks to Chee Ann for saying that I'm as cute as Charmander..HAHA

The second name is Alamandar. Not really sure where does this name came from but I remember Kenny said its the Alamanda shopping centre in Putrajaya. *Honestly speaking, I never heard of this shopping centre. Inside jual apa punya?

The third name is Salamandar. This is the name that I hate the most because salamander is a freaking ugly amphibians. This stupid name is also given by Chee Ann because I can spewed fire.

Any other weird nicknames for me?

Ello people

2010-04-23T14:10:00.004+08:00

Macam long time didn't update blog aldy. And thus I planned to write something to release boredom since I have no mood to study. I'm currently on study leave. First paper is going to be next Friday. Dun ask me how much I have studied. I dun wanna face this situation.

By the way, I have just registered my timetable this morning which is sucks coz I have 11.5 hours of class on Thursday, Monday with 2 classes and 1 class each for Tuesday and Wednesday. The server ain't down today, in fact its fast but I'm having trouble choosing the time slot becoz the classes that I want is either full or being removed. I can't follow my original-planned timetable and some back-up classes that I pre-planned also cannot follow. Really WTF! The classes have been taken by other courses that registered yesterday I presumed.

Anyway, I'm gonna temporarily forget bout this stupid timetable becoz its not going to start until June. I know finals not even started but I have aldy plan how I'm gonna spend my wonderful sem break. I will buy myself a complete set of Twilight novels and spend the time reading at home. Anxiously waiting to read the books. Besides, I will stock up some animes to feed my hungry cupboard and perhaps a gadget. Either a Sony or Apple stuff. Or maybe its just a dream. Haha.

A gorgeous picture to end my story perhaps? Edward Cullen aka Robert Pattinson is first on my "Gorgeous and Hot Guys" list currently. Sorry to Kim Hyun Joong and Kim Bum becoz I can't speak Korean. If anyone of you have or knew where to get Robert Patinson's poster, do let me know coz I'm desperate to have his poster hung on my room wall.

Have a nice day!

Yum Cha with RPSians

2010-04-06T16:43:00.002+08:00

Gals' talk, to my surprise, can last for hours non-stop. Chicky, Sunita, Limmie, Yook Woon and I were chatting from 9pm to 2.45am (almost 3am I could say). Its a 5 hours plus conversation ranging from "stuffs that all gals (guys) wanna know" to "stuffs that YOU don't even wanna know bout it". Yeah, thats exactly how we spent our 5++ hours gossiping, laughing on some jokes, story-telling, our personal stuff, gals thing, guys thing etc. If all of us do not have classes the next day, the conversation will go on until 6am, seriously. As we were about to move our asses off back home (it was about 2.30am), the story is still on going for like 15 minutes and finally we can 'blah' back home. Gosh, it was a tiring day as I have classes at 8am.

2010-03-26T19:59:00.002+08:00

Its my first time driving my whole family to dinner with my car just now. Also can say my first time using this car. I think I need more practises because this car is so different from mom's car. Honestly speaking, I prefer mom's car more. Mom, can we exchange car to use? Haha

My Car

2010-03-20T21:51:00.002+08:00

Finally finally finally, I have my own car now. Hooray!!! I don't need to borrow car from mom aldy. I can go wherever I like without the need to ask my parents to fetch me out.

Anyway, I'm not allowed to drive in Kampar because I have not pass my driving license from my parents yet even though I have aldy passed JPJ test. What to do? Continue cycle lor. Gotta treasure my little pinky bike because I'm using it till I graduate from UTAR.

That's all for now. Good nitez peeps.

Melbourne Trip

2010-02-19T17:50:00.003+08:00

I'm back. Too much to say. Overall, its a superb fun trip. Among all the trips I've been, this one is the best of the best. Thanks so much to Aunt Felicia and great aunt Kim for being our tour guides all the time. I miss you all now especially my niece, Chloe. Miss the good food and the weather there. Malaysia is too hot. Have a bit trouble understanding Uncle Victor and Raymond. They speak fast and their English is so deep. I felt so embarrassed with my stupid Malaysia English. Tasted lots of good food there, seriously more delicious than Malaysia food. .But the food there is so expensive.

Thats all for now. Let the pictures do the talking for me. There are on Facebook though. Check them out.

Ciao.

Happy CNY

2010-02-11T10:57:00.002+08:00

Had reunion dinner yesterday night. The conversations went on very well. Uncle Ben, Aunt Sven and Aunt Francesca kept on suggesting me to try eat this and that in Aust. Lobsters, king crabs, scallops, oysters, Vetnamese pork bun, honey pancake, soft ice cream etc. Feel so hungry now. I am so gonna gain many extra weight in this CNY.

Will be going Melbourne tonight but I still haven't finish packing. Urgh!!! My ass would still like to stick on this chair online-ing and watch tv.

Got many things to write but feels lazy. Haha. So, I would like to wish everyone here to have a happy and prosperous CNY.

Ciao.

Sim Yee's Birthday + My Drunk Moment

2010-02-05T14:30:00.005+08:00

First of all, I wanna wish Sim Yee happy birthday here. Congratz.

Yesterday, we have a great dinner near Tesco there. BBQ and steamboat again. I got help with the food this time. Not like last time, just sit down and waiting to be served. Haha.

After the dinner, we went back home for a shower and meet up again at Gold Label. Mei Ling, Pik Kuan and I each drank 2 bottles of Calsberg while the birthday girl drank 4 bottles. *Salute*

I felt kinda dizzy but I still can think and answer questions rationally. Am I considered as drunk then? Most said I am, but some said not because when someone is drunk, they will feel blur and talked gibberish.

After that, we went back to Westlake residence and gather at the little pathway right next to Mei Ling's house. And I vomit. I'm so sorry to Mr. Grass because I vomited on you. Hope Mr. Rain will come soon and give you a shower. Haha.

Thanks to Cheryl and Weini for taking care of me. When I reached home, I put a bucket next to my bed (in case I felt like vomit), *pling plang* onto my bed and sleep. I think it was 3am sth that time. I woke up at 8am (15 minutes earlier than the alarm I set) and get ready for 9.30am class. Just got some headache.

Thus, I knew my drinking limit now and I don't think I will try drinking so much again next time. Instead of drinking 2 bottles of beer, I would rather drink 2 watermelon jumbo.

And here's some pictures to end my "wonderful drunken moment" post.

~ the end of the party pic~

~TG1 + the 'it' gal + the cake~

~TG1 gals including the 'it' gal~

Unlucky Day

2010-02-03T16:34:00.007+08:00

Hello peeps!

Updates of talkative Sam now ~

Sam starts to get sick at Week 2. Suffered so much. But I'm back to health now. I'm ready for CNY mentally and physically. Hahaha..

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My girl friends and I were so **** unlucky today. Here is Sam's version of her very first unlucky day in year 2010. It begins with a weird dream that I have last night.

1) I dreamed that I'm rehearsing in the choral speaking team back in primary school but the setting took place in my secondary school though. Weird isn't it? And my choral speaking team teacher was Puan Ramakrishan. A very strict woman in selecting participants for choral speaking. (I felt proud back then because I'm one of the selected ones). Haha..We won lots of competitions but our best record always went to peringkat negeri only. Cannot go to peringkat kebangsaan. What I felt bad in this dream is that I totally don't know the script and when we were rehearsing, I kept on mumbling (try to catch other people's words) and I totally didn't show any expressions. Puan Ramakrishan figured out that I'm lost and I was kicked out of the team. It was so **** realistic in the dream.

Here comes the story how unlucky I was in uni today.

2) My friends and I went into the wrong lecture hall. We sat there for about 10 minutes and we finally realized that we are in the wrong venue when a different lecturer came in ( I seriously thought that our lecturer was absent and he is replaced by this lecturer) and we are surrounded by unfamiliar faces. Freaking embarrassed.

3) My friends and I were craving for waffles and we ended up waited for more than 10 minutes because of some minor problems with the workers there.

4) The Adidas shoes that I've always wear is sth wrong today. I have rashes at the back of my leg near ankle there and it hurts a lot while I was walking all the way through and fro Block H and Block C. It hurts the most when my leg touches water.

5) It's my group's turn to present the tutorial answers for MP today and that tutor makes me totally pissed off. He makes my group members and I look completely like idiots, not following instructions, lazy and blah blah blah. He even said that maybe we don't know how to express our sentences in English. Hello!! Now your English very good ar Mr? I know my English is not perfect but yours aren't better than mine. So don't look down on people's understanding on English okay? And his words kept on changing. He said different things in Week 1 and Week 3. I mean its his fault for stating different things and my group is the unlucky ones being the victim suffering from this. Besides, he cannot take a single joke or you cannot even have any chances to speak casually with him at all. When you tried to defends for yourself, he will said sth like dont be mulut tajam (dunno the word in eng) to him. He made the whole class stand up and you only get to sit if you answer his questions correctly. Can I stand him for another 11 more weeks? I had no idea. Just hope that he doesn't get on my nerves again.

6) I suddenly realized that my bunch of keys are not in my bag when I was on the way to get my Pinky bike. I was like OMG! If I lost the keys, I would be in big trouble. Luckily ( I still have a little bit of luck today, and I'm grateful to the God), I found them in my Pinky's bike basket. I was smart enough to have pull that tag out, if not, my hostel room will be robbed I guess. And I'm thankful that UTAR students don't play pranks on others. I thought some of them with itchy hands would have taken my keys and throw them or whatsoever.

7) I went to Danish House and fill in the form asking the technicians to come over and fix my room's bloody fan. The fan speed is 5 but it moves like 1. I was expecting that the technician would come and fix it immediately but they told me that they are coming tomorrow. WTF! The weather is so damn hot and I have to wait till tomorrow. Thank God that I have a standing fan, if not, I'll be hot to death. in uni, I just told my friends that Danish House is quite efficient because once you fill in the form, somebody will be sent over to fix your house and then, this thing happened to me. I just praised them a few hours earlier and then, their efficiency can drop so much a few hours later. In this world, there are sth that we really cannot praise. Once you praise, they got so flattered and things will go wrong.

8) I went to 1369 to print my timetable out and guess what? I was charged 60 cent just for a piece of paper. Bloody expensive! 10 cent for the paper and 50 cent for the internet service. I should have go outside to print then. I'm not that stingy just because I was charged 50 cent more, but the thing is, its just not worth it. Maybe that 1369 thinks that, non-resident should be charged for internet services, but don't they think that it's a bit too much? I used their internet services just for a minute or two and they can charge me 50 cent.

9) The sun is so **** hot and it burns my skin. Bye bye fair skin and hello dark skin.

10) The English for Business teacher jokingly ( I think its just a joke because its related to our tutorial topic today) said that I'm a difficult student just because I asked him whether he can postpone the assignment due date to a week later. And he told us a long stories of his and in the end, he did not answer my request and I did not dare to re-proposed this suggestion.

Let's see...Exactly ten unlucky things. Chinese always said "Ten is perfect". I hope the bad luck is up to here. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and praying hard that I don't encounter any more unlucky things when I go to the night market tonight.

So much for today then.

Nah, here comes 11.. It's raining now. Which means??? No night market today. WTF!

First Week In Kampar

2010-01-23T12:52:00.005+08:00

I would not say I dislike Kampar life right now. Somehow I love the new library at Block G there. It's spacious with ample of seats and the air-cond is cold enough to make me feel so comfy there while reading novels in there. But the books aren't many. What makes me happiest is that UTAR library finally has this book, "Shopaholic & Baby". And I'm the first borrower. Well, I'm generous in buying anime but when it comes to novels, I'm a bit reluctant to buy them because they are expensive. I managed to finished reading 'Can you Keep A Secret' in a day as well. So, now I've finished reading all the books by Sophie Kinsella. Will go to hunt for more books next week.

Back to my classes, its all held in Block H and I. I totally enjoy this because it really had that "uni feel" there compare to Block B, D and E. And Block H also makes me has this secondary school feel with all the rooms built in a row. By the way, I wish I did not know my MUET marks. It makes me so heartache.

I wasn't able to get much sleep at my hostel though. I felt so different with the stupid bed, the different ceiling, the stupid fan and the smell in the room. I have a stupid nightmare where a dog is chasing me along a corridor up to the stairs and I woke up shouting HELP! WTF! I'm never scared of dogs because I like them. How can I have such dreams? Stupid.

And when I thought I finally can get a good sleep when I back to Ipoh yesterday, something went wrong. I slept as early as 10.30pm and woke up around 1am. I went downstairs to get a drink. So, when I get into the wet kitchen to get some milk from the fridge, I got freaked out because there's a cockroach near the basin. I hurried out of the wet kitchen to get Baygon and when I went back again, another cockroach appears. WTF! There's 2 cockroaches in the wet kitchen. I just sprayed the Baygon on that 2 hideous cockroaches. The cockroaches are too ugly and disgusting and I can't bring my eyes to see them. I did not know whether they are dead or not. I went up to my room straight. Yucks! I couldn't fall asleep because I keep on imagining those cockroaches. I have these hallucination that they are crawling near my bed and on the ceiling. Damn. I tried to read a CLEO magazine and those models with heavy mascara on their eyes somehow look like a cockroach to me as well. Damn. I don't know what time I fall asleep. I'm too scared to enter the wet kitchen now. I don't think I'll get anything from the fridge or cook noodles in there for the time being.

Love is Fool, Fool is Love

2010-01-21T00:12:00.003+08:00

Sweet words can be poured out easily
One can made thousands of empty promises without the need to fulfill them
The quote"A promise is A promise" is a LIE
The sweet words, the promises, the feelings, the moments and everything that we gone through together,
Once its passed, its forgotten, it became history.

One can say "I love you forever" and "I'll be with you forever" today,
And the same person can leave you alone and let you suffer the next day.

Does true love only exists in drama or happened to only a few lucky people in this world?
I wonder and doubt the existence of LOVE FOREVER in homosexuals, bisexuals and straight people?
A couple can appears lovely to others, but only God knows what's in the mind of the couple.
Maybe either or both think that their partners are bored.
Or perhaps they are secretly thinking of other people outside their other halves?

I also don't know what am I thinking now. Writing bout this in the middle of the night. This is a compilation of feelings and thinking that I have right now. Maybe I was too emotional and got influenced by my close friend. That feeling that I have lost long time ago suddenly occurs to me. I'm not sure if you will be reading this, all I want you to know is that "Do not indulge in the past, look forward and you will see a bright future awaiting for you in front."

Am I Short?

2010-01-16T23:08:00.002+08:00

Well, I was having dinner with my mom and two brothers at Greentown Moven Peak just now. There were lots of people there. Really 人山人海 (people mountain people sea). Surprised le? In fact my Chinese has actually improved a lot last year. Well, the story regarding to my title was like this.

There were a few girls aged range from 12 to 20++ sitting next to our table. Suddenly, one of the girls stood up. I was amazed because she has very long legs (she's wearing a very short jeans and this made her legs look even longer). I think her height is around 175cm or even taller. So, the conversation with my family is like this:

Me: Hey, the girl next to our table who is standing now is very tall le.

Mom and 2 bro (answer simultaneously): Lei ngai jeh (you short jeh).

What the heck? Seriously now I very short meh? For a girl, 160cm should be a standard height right? Both my brothers always bully me. They don't seem to respect me and treat me as their eldest sis. Being short is discriminated in my family. Sigh

Full Moon Wo Sagashite

2010-01-15T22:19:00.004+08:00

I'm freaking bored today. So I tried to search some DVDs to watch. Found an anime that my mom bought for me ages ago but I didn't bother to watch that few years back. Full Moon Wo Sagashite. This anime really touched my heart and made me cried. It has 52 episodes all together but I skipped most of all it because I wanna meet Mitsuki's lover, Sakurai. They both grew up together in an orphanage. Sakurai was adopted and went to America while Mitsuki was adopted by her grandmother at her mother side. Sakurai confessed that he loves her before he left but Mitsuki has yet to tell him her feelings. They both lost contact for this 2 years but Mitsuki believes that she can meet Sakurai one day when she becomes a famous singer. She got help from 2 shinigami (death god) who decides to help her to fulfill her wish as she only has 1 year of life left. As the story progressed ( mostly revealing about secrets and the past of the shinigami and people around Mitsuki which I've skipped quite a lot), Mitsuki finally went to America to find Sakurai. Sadly, Sakurai had actually died 2 years ago in a car accident after a few months moving to America. Mitsuki really wanted to die at that time lying at Sakurai's tomb. I cried like hell at this part. Should not have watch this anime, it's a tragedy to me. But the anime ended with Mitsuki together with the shinigami (many stories behind this)..blah blah blah..

~Mitsuki and Sakurai~

For anime lovers, this anime is definitely worth to watch and the songs are great. Most important is because the male characters inside are bishounen (handsome). Hahaha.. I'm gonna re watch this before going back to Kampar. Haiz, why do I feel so tired suddenly after mentioning Kampar? The next 14 weeks starting from next week will be a tiring one for me. Tutorial questions, assignments, presentations etc all appeared in my mind now. Help!!!

And since I'm freaking bored now, I even change the picture on the top of my blog page as well. In the previous pic, it was me with my Totoro. In the new pic, its me with my Keroro (one of my treasured anime collection in Keroro Gunso).

Hello 2010

2009-12-31T21:04:00.004+08:00

Though its a bit reluctant, but I still need to welcome a new year coming. Today mark the end of year 2009 and I'll be a year older. Well, to comfort myself, I will still consider myself as 19 since my next birthday is ten months from now. I wonder whether its a good thing or a bad thing to have a late birthday.

Anyway, tonight is New Year Eve but my family has no plans at all as dad has went off for business trip. I thought of BBQ, but my bro reject this idea because he's always the one who needs to clean up the mess. Haha..I still remember that last Friday, we had a Christmas BBQ and after that, all of us flew into the house to watch TV and left my poor bro there cleaning the mess. But at least, I helped to do the dishes..My dad is the laziest. All he does is bring a plate out and fill it with food. Then, he went into the house and eat. Swt..Is this call barbecue?

Well well well, I just figured out that I actually have a month holiday and not 3 weeks. But it doesn't make much different though. Holidays always passed too fast. 1 month in Kampar feels like 2 months to me even though I kept myself busy all the time. However, a month holiday is like 2 weeks to me. I'm freaking free until I do not know what to do. I stayed in my house everyday watching animes, reading manga and sleep. I thought time is supposed to pass faster when we are busy and passed slower when we are too free rite? But why izit different in my situation?

Speaking of anime and manga, I just couldn't stop myself from watching and reading Junjou Romantica. The characters inside are mostly bishonen and I never thought that boy's love is that cool. It's even cooler than lesbians and normal boy-girl relationship. But please don't get me wrong. I'm not a weirdo or something. I just think that gays actually have much more courage to love than normal people who pursue normal relationships. I respect them for such courage and totally accept gays and lesbians. Do I sound weird here? Hahaha..Sort of..

~Akihiko and Misaki ~

*Akihiko is very handsome and cool rite? I also think so..Lolz..He's currently my No.1 fav character in my bishonen Top 10 list. Well, find 1 day when I'm free, I shall update my Bishonen Top 10 list here. Hahaha..

And before I forget, I wanna wish everybody Happy 2010!

Updates

2009-12-22T22:16:00.007+08:00

Study week becomes my holiday week. I spent the days watching television and sleep. Lolz..Then, I went to KL with family for 3 days despite of having finals in 2 days time. I spent a lot there. I bought clothes, flip flops, shoes, gifts for family and my favourite is Nike bag. Again, it's red color. My mom ask me to consider other colors but I still prefer red. Haiz. I already owned many red stuff and I still add another red stuff into my bag collection.

We stayed at Royale Bintang Hotel because mom loves The Curve. Everyday also walk, walk and walk. Have a lovely pre-Christmas dinner at Paddington House of Pancakes. I said pre-Christmas because the restaurant is decorated full of Christmas stuff and it really gives me the Christmas feel that moment. I've always wanted to eat in this restaurant because I love pancakes. It really stop my pancake craving after that meal because almost every food we ordered also has pancakes in it. It was really yummy. Too bad Ipoh don't have PHOP.

~anson's food~

~grandma's food~

~mom's~

~dad's~

~mine~

~annyew's~

Because of grandma's curiosity, we went in to Marche. She said the restaurant looks special when we passed by outside. Initially we don't have the intention to eat in there because we aldy have our lunch, but sudah masuk tak boleh keluar, so have to sit down and simply order something. Haha..I ordered a salmon Caesar salad. Don't really like it..I prefer Kenny Roger's Caesar salad better. My dad and bro ordered some light food like jumbo sausage and marsh potato. They said it taste nice. Well, I said it should be because the price is also very nice. Haha..

~the green bull of Marche~

And I also enjoyed the night life at The Curve. We spent our nights there drinking while enjoying the lively environment there with musical band performing there.

And this is ME! Lolz

~having a hi-tea after shopping~

~yum cha at nite~

I also bought a soft toy at Ikea. It looks very much like Bebe. Haha..When I was carrying to the cashier, many ppl looked at me. Haha..But I'm not the only over-grown kid buying it..I also came across some girls of my age holding the same soft toy also. But mostly are kids lar..Haha..

~BEBE~

~counterfeit BEBE~

And why izit there's no dog shop in Ipoh shopping mall? My mom, bro and I really like to shop for our dogs. There's many dog stuffs in there. What attracts me is the dog perfume. Haha..I feel like wanna buy one for Mico so that when I hug him, he would smell nice. But I didn't because I'm saving for my own shopping. Haha..Saw many cute rabbits there. Make me think of my Mocha again. Mom asked me wanna buy one back or not. I'm thinking of buying a loop ear rabbit because if I buy Angora, I will need to comb its fur (remember I always got scolded by mom last time becoz I didn't comb Mocha's fur). Haha.. But I decided not to buy last minute because I don't have the time to care for it if I bring it back to Kampar. Here's a picture of my cute little Mocha. He was killed by Pei Pei few years ago. Wuwuwu..Really 'mou sau po' (cannot revenge) because he was killed by my own dog. Pei Pei chased him until he got a heart attack and died.

~Mocha~

Then, here comes exam week. Nothing much to say. Screwed up Business Finance and Advertising and Promotion papers except for Consumer Behaviour. I do have some hopes for A&P before exam but its all wrong. For the first time in my life, I studied a subject until I feel like wanna vomit. Only God knows how suffered am I before and on A&P exam. I kept on feeling like wanna vomit.

No celebrations with my classmates after the exam because all of us headed home after this. Feel kinda sad because most of us will be separated next semester because of the stupid flexi timetable.

I'm currently enjoying my 3 weeks holiday now. Will go shopping with mom soon to stock up my anime collection. Hehe..And I'm going to spend my CNY in Australia. Super duper happy..Initially, grandma says wanna go Hong Kong but HK is quite expensive and will be crowded with ppl, so changed to Australia. Will get to see many relatives there. But the sad thing is, I'll miss my classes. Hope there's no mid-term around that time. If not, I will need to take supplementary exams.

Last Gathering

2009-12-04T01:44:00.002+08:00

I figured out that even though finals is approaching, all of us still enjoyed our days like there's no exams coming. I admit that I really played a lot starting from week 5. Everyweek also got plan. Haha. Anyway, as most of the people are heading back to hometown on Friday night, so we have a gathering at westlake just now. Almost the whole class came I would say. Had a great time chit chatting and playing the "shouting friends' names" game. Everybody is so funny when they point each other, some shouting all the names out and some tongue-tied trying to guess the names. As for me, I shout and laugh until my sore throat seems to have worsened. Haha..Anyway, tomorrow is the last day of semester 2. Hope that I can study hard during study week in my house. I strongly believe that this hope is hard to achieve.

Updates

2009-12-03T01:47:00.003+08:00

First of all, I wanna wish Wei Ni happy birthday. I think all of us enjoyed and had a great time at the basketball court playing games especially water. Running here and there filling up the bottles with water and splashing each other. I'm wet from head to toe, not to mentioned my underwear. Hope everyone doesn't get sick when they woke up later.

And I finally got the chance to finish watching HSM3. Kinda outdated am I? Haha..And I've also finished watching My Sister's Keeper. Well, for those who prefer a happy ending, I suggest you all to watch the movie. As for me, I think the novel is better even though it isn't a happy ending.

Gosh, it's 2am now and I don't feel sleepy thanks to the water that make me so awake now. Have classes at 8am later. Not planning to sleep. I wanna continue watch The Ugly Truth. Bye.

Release My Anger

2009-11-24T01:41:00.003+08:00

You know what time izit now? It's 1.41am. Not that I don't wanna sleep..But I got woken up after having difficulty falling asleep. I would not mentioned whose that inconsiderate person here as my blog is open to every readers..but I just wanna release my anger here..Feel like scolding h** vulgar words now as well. Damn..I wanna find someone to listen to me now so that I can release my anger..

Camwhore

2009-11-22T00:37:00.004+08:00

Okay, it's aldy 1am now. Wanna share with my friends what I did yesterday. Haha..Yesterday morning, I went to saloon with mom. Well, the hairdresser made some curls for my hair. Pretty nice I would say but doesn't last long. Only can 'tahan' for a few hours. So my hair went back to straight when I attend the dinner at night. Haha..I will not post the pic here because I fail to find the right angle to snap pic with my curl hair. Haha..

After that, we went to have 'dim sum' at Ipoh Garden. Yummy..Then, we went Jusco. Little bro and I both bought a pair shoes. I got this cute little shoes from Vincci. Haha..Upon reaching home, I quickly switch on Astro and started to watch 宮心計. Haiz..still got many episodes to go..

Then at night, went to Syuen Hotel to attend relative's wedding dinner. To release my boredom there, I started to play with the camera again. LOLz..Well, to me, that's the only thing I could do.

~ME and mom~

~ME and little bro (pandai buat action)~

~big mouth pic~

~emo-look and normal look~

~camwhore 1~

~camwhore 2~

~camwhore 3~

*camwhore 4, 5, 6 etc will be uploaded on FB later. ^^

BBQ + Steamboat with MK TG1

2009-11-20T12:45:00.003+08:00

Well, this is the final and official celebration for having finished all the presentations and mid-terms. After our 8pm class yesterday, we went to the restaurant nearby Tesco there. 14 people squeezed into Cheryl and William's car. Had great fun eating there with them. Honestly speaking, I didn't do anything there except taking food and drinks for them only. While all of them were busy grilling the food, I just sat there, demand what I want to eat and then eat. Hahaha...We left bout 11sth and went to Westlake. Chit chat chit chat chit chat then go home at almost 1am.

~pic with Cheryl in her formal wear~

~Consumer Behaviour tutor - Mr Johnny~

~Seow's camera has been victimised by me ^^~

McD Day with MK TG1

2009-11-17T18:54:00.002+08:00

Today, my friends and I went to McD to celebrate our happy days for having finished all of our mid-terms and presentations. The 11 people going were ME, Chin Leng, Sim Yee, Pik Kuan, Li Min, Bobby, Seow, Ying Hao, Rico, Man Khong and Daniel. Guess how we went to McD at Gopeng from Kampar. We cycled. Gosh..how tiring...

Okay, that was a joke..We took bus. Well, this was my very first time taking public bus or better known as Kinta bus. The experience is kinda okay on the way to Gopeng because it was an air-conditioned bus. But on the way back, I don't really like it because the bus has NO AIR-COND..we got natural wind though but the wind blew too hard and you people know la, I got long hair ma. So when the car moves, my hair become so messy and I seriously look like a 'soh po'.

~bus tickets- keep it as memory (shall throw them away when I think these are rubbish..well i knew its actually aldy rubbish now..lolz..)~

~in McD - my hair was not messy~

~my messy hair in the stupid bus - i know its not that messy, but i tried to choose the nicest pic to put here (the really 'soh po' pic won't be uploaded)~

~McD washroom~

~we eat a lot~

~love this picture~

Advertising & Promotion Presentation

2009-11-16T18:19:00.000+08:00

Finally finished all the presentations aldy. Big thanks to my group members for the hard work especially Khen, the most hardworking person in the group. Nice working with you. The slides and the ads are great.

~Rico, CK, Khen, ME~

~ME, Chin Leng, Pik Kuan, Sim Yee, Li Min

~Bobby and ME~

~Seow and ME~

~Rico and ME~

~Ying Hao and ME~

Consumer Behaviour Presentation

2009-11-13T18:06:00.000+08:00

Overall, the presentation goes on well. Quite satisfied with it since we have put lots of effort in it. We even went to Tesco to take pictures. Many sweet memories there coz we've to 'curi curi' take the products to somewhere quiet, arrange them and take pictures. Besides, we've also made our own P1 Wimax advertisement and other videos as well.

~me~

~ME, chin leng, pik kuan, sim yee~

World's Oldest Dog

2009-11-12T21:29:00.004+08:00

Baxter is the worlds best, most devoted, and oldest therapy dog. Born in March 23, 1990, he past away peacefully on October 16, 2009. It really impressed me that a dog actually has such long lives. I thought the maximum age for a dog is 15 years. Never expect that there's a dog in this world, which is Baxter, can lived for 19 years and 6 months old. He's older than me. Well, all I could say is Rest In Peace Baxter. If I were his owner, I think I'll cry days and nights. I remembered how sad I was when Mocha (my rabbit), Cookie 1 (my pug), Bobo (my beagle) died. Not to mentioned another 2 dogs, Coco (my shi tzu) and Cookie 2 ( pug) walked out of the house and got 'curi' by those uncivilized idiotics..Hope the rest of my doggies could live a longer ages especially my Mico.

Souzi

2009-10-31T22:15:00.003+08:00

I had no idea why Mei Ling choose this doll for me and so, I went on a research. According to her, she choose this because it looks like me. =.= I don't think so. Haha..

Okay, this doll is named Souzi and is in one of the many collections under Love Momiji. This collection named The Itchy Feet dolls by Nina Zimmermann are inspired by dreaming about and traveling to magical places.

Well, this sounds interesting to me because I loves to dream where I would go traveling to magical and mysterious places..and meet handsome guys as well. LMAO!

And the explanation for this doll is - Tea for toozi in the tipi with souzi. I like secrets and animal-shaped clouds.

No idea what it means. But I do like to listen to other people's secrets and figure out what kinda animal-shaped does the clouds I saw look like. So afterall, this doll kinda suits my characteristic well also.

Bon Voyage

2009-10-31T21:51:00.002+08:00

Dad is flying to Taiwan for business trip tonight. Gonna miss him because he 'll be away for around 2 weeks and I can't go back on Week 4. Gosh, so long time cannot see him. Just now, I forgot to bid him goodbye because I was too busy online-ing. Ann-Yen is such a bad daughter. >.<

Praying that daddy will have a safe trip and hope got souvenirs lar..

My Birthday with MK TG1

2009-10-31T18:00:00.006+08:00

Earlier in the afternoon, Chin Leng and Pik Kuan say wanna spend my last few hours of birthday with me. They agreed to come at 10.30pm. I said OK even though it's a bit rush for me because I'm with TA4 ma. But since Chin Leng and Pik Kuan got so BIG heart wanna be with me, I sure have to accept lar. Haha..I sounded like I am so famous pulak. *forgive me* Well, it was raining at that time, so I thought wanna cancel it because I dont want them to get sick because of me. But, they still came.

We spent time chatting in my room until Chin Leng said Cheryl needs help with Business Finance and so we headed to 1494. WOW..surprise...TG1 gals and Chi Ching were waiting for me behind the door with........an egg tart with a candle on it. =.= They sang me birthday song, I blew the candle, take it out with mouth and cut the smallie egg tart with a BIG vege knife. And then, real surprise came. The guys were coming out behind me with the cake and they all sang me birthday song. OMG! So freaking touched that time because there were so many people and despite of the rain as well as our busy and hectic study hours, they still plan this for me. And I feel a bit paiseh as well because I'm not used to be everybody's attention.

And so, again, I make a wish..I keep repeating the same wishes..haha..blew the candles..and yeah, speaking of candles, except for TA4 who put 19 candles on the cake ( they have the intention to put 38 candles because both me and yin syn are turning 19), both Sunita and Chin Leng they all also put 1 candle on the cake..Izit because you people are lazy to put the rest of the 9 candles on the cake or you all wanna make me feel happier to not see so many candles on the cake? Haha..no idea..

After that, again...we played with the creams..and again..we played INSIDE the house..sorry cheryl and chi ching..susahkan you two..

And thanks for the present..It was really something that I like it when I first saw it at KL..no idea when they bought the doll. Thank you so much.

For unknown reasons, some people tend to message me at sharp 12am of 31st Oct..Why ar? Izit because they forgot or they wanna be the first person to wish me after I've officially turned 19 years old. haha..also no idea. But at least Felix is honest enough to admit that he had forgotten my birthday when he called me...Anyway, even though its aldy past my birthday, my classmates still treat me as birthday girl and let me decide where to hang out after that. Haha..So off we go to Gold Label..They drank root beer..As for me, I drink Coke..good girl rite? LOL! Headed back home at 2am sth.

A very BIG thanks to all TG1 members, William and Chi Ching for this celebration.